Remember my New Years Resolution to get in shape and join a fitness challenge group? I did it and today was day two of doing T25. I knew if was intense from watching it, but I’m telling you it’s INTENSE! And, of course, since I wanted to do it perfectly I ran into problems FAST. They have someone doing the modified version of every exercise so that you can follow her if need be. I tried not to. uh huh. About half way through I was was over heating, breathing hard and not feeling so good. I quit. I did. Really. During my first workout. For a good 20 minutes I laid on my bed, closed my eyes and argued with myself about whether I was going to finish the workout or walk away. But, I’m not a quitter so I got myself back up and I finished the workout. And felt sick for a few hours afterwards.
Why am I telling you this? Because I learned something through this. I want to be perfect – to do it perfectly the first time and every time. But the point of it all is not immediate perfection. It’s a progression. I didn’t want to do the modified version. To admit that I needed to. But I DO need to because it’s ALL I can do at this moment. And that’s okay. It’s the first step of many towards getting fit. By the time I got up to finish the workout I had made a decision about something. I will do ONLY the modified version of the workouts this week, give my body a chance to get used it, be proud that I completed each one and go from there. I’m giving myself permission to not be perfect. At the same time I am not letting myself quit the program. I will see it through, I will give it my best (regardless of what that looks like), and I will be proud of myself for doing so.